a voyeur speaking

secret:

 i’ve stumbled upon another blog. and this is from another amazing person who does designs so craftily. i met him eons ago, and he’s gone off enjoying some crazy work. i don’t miss him. i just miss the idea of him and myself talking again, just walking, criticizing posters and talking about art films. he has a girlfriend now, and he’s so happy about it. as in giddily happy. i’m amazed at the sight of people being so in love in an uncontrollable psychic way. these are not the type who’d kiss and mangle each other in public, but those who have that air. you just feel it in their gait, you hear it in their hands. and when you see them, you can’t help but smile.

that’s pure sweetness, a sincere one.

but then the rawness of humanity is also tempting. you know that feeling of letting go of all rules and just plain living? as in really having fun and succumbing to a world of bacchanal instincts. going to that circle of delights. like hansel and gretel also having that minute desire of approaching the forbidden forest. it’s all in us, it’s in you, just that strong desire. that very strong desire. oh daughters and sons of eve, what madness to live in this crazy world.

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nostalgia hates me. when it treads away, it doesn’t leave traces. when it returns, it explodes. it leaves debris. i try to find myself. i hold myself, scattered in the wind. i speak, water does not collect on my palm.

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playing with words is similar to playing with fire. you choose words that can scald you in a minor way, and then you avoid the heavy fireballs, the dragging consonants. you look for the heaving vowels, the silent ‘e’ in love, the dangerous curves of ‘o.’ at the end, the tips of ‘v’ sting you, little fangs of fire that burn deep.

The Kiss by Gustav Klimt, one of my favorite paintings. i am so enamored with this painting.  i can’t explain it, i just got attracted to the serenity in the picture. look at how the woman’s toes curl. how truthful…

 

 

Der Kuss

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